As the Christmas festivities draw to a close, and the days seem shorter and shorter, I've found myself needing more downtime, more sleep and more comfort. In the past this would have disturbed me, I'd have been annoyed with myself, forcing myself to keep on working, stay awake or get up and get going but not this year. This year I've slept as long as I need to, gone to bed when I'm tired and cosied up on the sofa when that was all I felt like doing and it felt good. It felt good to let go of the tight grip I usually have on everything, to let go of the need to meticulously plan every day. To leave space for magical moments to pop up unannounced. To be able to say 'yes' to that last minute invitation.
It's a complete change of habit for me. A new way of being. A connection with my body I've yearned for. A relaxation of my mind I've worked hard for. An ability to stop, breathe and ask my heart what it is it needs right now. As I start to reflect on 2018 I realise my list of gratitudes is endless but at the top is definitely my meditation and yoga practice. Meditation has taught me how to still my mind, how to listen to my heart, how to follow my intuition, that little voice inside me that whispers in my ear and guides my way. This year I began aligning my yoga practice and my teaching in tune with the lunar cycle. Not only has it informed my classes, it has also resulted in being more in tune with my body than ever before. Now, when my limbs ache and my shoulders are tight, I listen. I know this is my body telling me it needs to rest.
So, as the year draws to a close and we are hibernating inside, see if you can make time to reflect on your year. What are you grateful for? What did you achieve? What can you do differently next year or what would you like to continue doing? One of my biggest revelations is that stopping and looking around once in a while does not mean that my world will fall apart, and I give myself permission to continue to do this when it feels right. As someone who is naturally very yang, I'm learning how to incorporate more yin, I feel balanced, and isn't that what we all strive for? A balanced life?
As the dawn of a new year approaches, I feel excited, there's a fluttering in my heart, a tingling in my fingers, a gentle butterfly in my tummy. The magic happens in those nothing moments, in space, in the pause. Be still with me, there's hope floating in on the horizon.
Om shanti shanti shanti xx